I’m not a glamorous writer. If you’ve
been following my blog for any amount of time, you know that. I wish I could
say that I wake up early in the morning and immediately begin penning the world’s
next super-amazing novel, but I don’t. I do write late at night, but it’s not
nearly as interesting as you might think. I sit down with my computer, read
through my outline (again) and try to make some sort of plot. I do that day
after day; crazy, isn’t it?
My first drafts, too, aren’t
amazing. The story’s good enough and the characters are mostly genuine, but the
plot. Sage advice: Never ever lose half of your novel and try to rewrite it
from scratch. This means you come up with random plots (what, there’s a
rebellion now?) and the beginning and end don’t fit anymore. You also realize
that you have no idea what you’re doing, and you’re writing anyway. (Hey, welcome
to my life.)
I’m also not that writer who only
writes when she’s inspired. Sure, I could wait for that. But then I’d just
wait, and nothing would happen. Writing solely from inspiration, though poetic,
doesn’t work for me. I also don’t spend hours crafting elegant sentences. I set
a time limit and cram. My writing process isn’t pretty, but it works.
My characters don’t talk to me when
I’m doing other life stuff. I think about them, sure, but it’s not the same. It
sounds fulfilling to say, “My characters speak to me,” but mine don’t. I just
write them and think they’re awesome. (There’s a great difference, you see.)
I’ve been a bad writer lately. Why?
Because I haven’t been writing.
But my novel deserves more
attention than that, and honestly, wasting time doesn’t do anything. I need to
give my novel focus. With so much time on my hands, it’s easy to squander it on
pretending to write and email and reading and fun stuff and housework, but I can’t.
Besides, I believe in the story and the characters enough that it’s worthwhile.
I’ll fill the document “with the breathings of my heart.” I just need to put in
the time to finish this draft so I can actually do something with it. Soon it’ll
be worth it, I hope. (Then I can discover the joys of editing. YAY.)
Me looking excited about editing. With bedhead. |
So, I’m going to make myself write
3k a day. Only 18,000 more words. I can do this. My writing deserves it. I deserve it, because writing
is awesome. I just got inspired, so I'm going to sign off now.
However, it’s
Father’s Day today. So, I just wanted to give a shout-out to my dad, for being
awesome and encouraging me. He's always been here for me and really cares about all of us. I'm so lucky to have him. And he makes the best chocolate-chocolate-chip peanut-butter cookies ever. :)
Aw, don't worry about being a different writer. We all are, in some way, shape, or form. I know I am.
ReplyDeleteThat's terrible about losing half your novel!! I can't imagine! That would be 50,000 words for me. NOT cool... That's why I have my book saved in several forms in several places... At least it limits how much I can lose...
Good luck with writing!!! Hope you can meet your goals!! :D
Aww, thank you. I know I'm not alone in this. Sometimes it's just hard to remember.
DeleteAs for my lovely novel, it hasn't been going too badly. This time I'm completely changing the plot, so stuff is actually happening, which is better.
I've just got to stick to my goals. It'll go well, though. I've very good with self-discipline :)
Taking a break isn't such a bad idea, you know. But I agree you can't wait for inspiration. :/ I'd never ever ever write then. Also, my characters don't speak to me as much as I speak to them. They develop their own stories, but it's usually me deciding how they'll act about it. Gee. That sounds confusing.
ReplyDeleteOH. KATIA. YOU HAVE A FACE.
First things first... Yes, I DO have a face. My parents are proud. Honestly, though, I'm not a visual person so I don't notice when I have no idea what people look like. It is probably reassuring to have a slight affirmation that I am who I say I am, though.
DeleteTaking a break is a good idea, but there's something about working through the first draft that's so exhilarating. I'll take a break soon, which is why I need to get this all down. It'll come together. *crosses fingers*
I know what you mean. It's heartening to know that I'm not the only one who doesn't have their characters "talk" in non-writing moments. Maybe that's where my desire for control comes in. . . :)